"I took the little radio from the kitchen and I went and sat in the spare room and I turned it halfway between two stations so that all I could hear was white noise and I turned the volume up really loud and I held it against my ear and the sound filled my head and it hurt so that I couldn't feel any other sort of hurt, like the hurt in my chest"
Saturday, September 18
sometimes I'm so focused, so absurdly concentrated,
(more often than not because of caffein overdose)
that I focus on my being focused,
which is a weird thing, you know?
and it's completely pointless because you're not going anywhere by
concentrating on the fact that you're concentrating.